Seth

I recieved word this morning at 10:30 or so.

I have been reading the book "Live from New York," the history of Saturday Night Live, and had been struck by the passage detailing John Belushi's passing. In it, the authors discuss how, in the wake of his death, what resonated most seemed to be how it signaled an ending for the remaining members of the original group. "They could never go back, never regroup, never be together again. It would never be just like it was."

This had made me somewhat reflective about my life in BG. So much has changed, and so many have left to begin their lives. But still there was always the chance that there would be a reunion, a new gathering, a chance for my strange, glorious extended theatre family to come full circle and share in each other's lives once more. No matter where we all went, the possibility still remained.

That will never happen now. Not with Theta, not with the Shatners, not even with the department as a whole. For no matter how many of us attend, there will always be a vacancy, and no matter how strong our connection, there will always be a break in the line.

There are many emotions. Sadness, naturally. Shock, without doubt. A certain level of anger. Regret, because I had seen so little of him in the past few years. But above all, mourning. Not just for the loss of a friend and colleague, but for an era that is now gone and will never return.

There was to be a reunion of sorts in just over a week. A wedding. A celebration of the lifelong joy of one of our group's members, and one of my best friends.

There will be a reunion of sorts tonight. Myles Pizza Pub, 10 p.m. A gathering of friends in rememberance of our friend, who held court over so many Myles gatherings over the years.

Questions, both externally and internally directed, will be asked later. For now, our group will simply reunite in the spirit of brotherhood and love, remembering the man who has left our company, and mourning the empty space he leaves, one which will never be filled.

Rest in peace, my friend.